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Monday, April 16, 2007

Random Facts of a Random Girl

Because I don't blog enough... according to Isk. haha Haven't I done this before? Except it was five. Now I have to think of 10?? I'm not THAT weird...I think. haha

The rules are: Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 5 people to be tagged, list their names, and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says “you are tagged” on their profile and tell them to read your latest blog.

1. My first celebrity crush was Jason Priestly from Beverly Hills 90210. And that was when I was just 7!
2. Geri Halliwell was my favourite Spice Girl.
3. I tend to attach stories or snapshot pictures to songs/scenes that i hear/see. Like for the song Breathing by Lifehouse, I have a complete story, with dialogue and movie directions and scene cuts. (not the music video)
4. I collect pictures: physically, digitally and mentally. Images or scenes or snapshots which are fascinating/has story/good composition...etc.
5. I'm a book and movie snob. I don't understand why people don't read classics or good contemporaries, preferring to read b-grade books and why people pay 8 bucks to watch Little Man over Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
6. I have a missing tooth. According to the dentist. Haha
7. I don't really hate mats and minahs. I think they are an interesting social group.
8. When I was 8, I named my stationery. I remember my compass pencil was Quinn, my glue-stick Roy and stapler Rebecca. I obviously do not do that anymore! haha
9. Embarrassingly, when I was 12, I wrote a 5-page letter to MOE dissing the PSLE and calling it child-labour. I got a reply asking me to "tea" to hear more about my thoughts. My then-stupid-X-Files-paranoia filled mind destroyed the letter and never RSVPed. haha
10. I think Paris Hilton is one intelligent mature and poised woman

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Hahaha...gotcha! of course not! like real! *rolls eyes*

The real Number 10. hmm..ok. So far in my 21 years of life, I've had 2 could-die-near-death situations. One when I was 4 and another when I was 17? 18? Freaky.

Which means...live life to the fullest people! =)

Tagging: Arly, Fatma, Parvin, Hafizah, Shikah and Nuda. Ok, that's six people. Why? Because I don't know how weird you all are....yet! ;)

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Friday, April 06, 2007

Blogging

Done. Submission is over and that's that! That was quick! So I thought 5th April couldn't come any sooner, but it did! No more late nights, no more stressing over design, or drawing plans, sections, construction details...layouts, concepts, elevations, model-making! That is until we face crit on Monday...

And we got FONG this semester!!! God! Can die already lah!!! Fong! Fong!!! He's the most brutal crit in year one! Even worse than Alan, from what i hear. At least Alan dishes out fair complimentary comments here and there. But not Fong...NoooOooo. He favours his studio though. And seeing that we are not in his studio, I think I can just about see myself being slaughtered on Monday!!! How? How?? Feeling pretty nervous actually. Will anxiety ever end?

Well, I shall not think about Monday just yet. Not till Sunday night that is. (What to wear??) For the first time in like 2 weeks did I actually managed to sleep on my bed! Wow! I've forgotten how good it feels! hahaha slept for a good 15 hrs last night? Man...that's a pretty long sleep! But it was goooood! And now will enjoy my weekend as much as I can before Monday, and exam period! Mug mug mug....

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During the past two weeks, I have been meaning to blog on a variety of things. Things that I hear, things that I see, feel, experience or thought. Things that happen and just random things that pass my way. And then one incident occured, and I thought, why the hell do we blog in the first place??

That incident refers to me being quoted from a poet on my thoughts on a performance of his, in his own personal blog. Okay, so in the beginning it seemed all cool and fun and "Hey! Look at me! I'm actually THAT important! My thoughts actually do matter!"

That is until I re-read my own post. And subsequently my previous entries in the archives. Right up to the very first post. And I kept feeling dissatisfied with each reading. Was this the person I wanted to portray of myself? It was so... blah! So messy, so random. Maybe that's it. The messy randomness of me! But there was no flow. If it was an essay, it would have failed completely because there was no one logical flow! How depressing! And when I read blogs of others...like WaiterRant and Jason Hahn's blogs, as well as few friend's blogs, travel blogs, review-blogs, stories-blogs, they're all pretty good! Some have a purpose. Like my friend Dina has a REALLY good blog about movies. And it's all professional with disclaimers etc. It's waaay cool!

And I wondered why I started a blog in the first place. Sure, in the first post, I wanted one to just because it was in, hip, and 'why not?' kind of reason. But I vaguely remember wanting the blog to at least be classy. Like one of those cool chic fascinating blogs you read about. And how it veered off from that course is lost on me. Then I wanted to have a photoblog instead. Which is a lot more interesting. Even I, who occasionally blog-surf rarely read lengthy entries, but scroll down for pictures. But then, I didn't have a camera. Now that I do, maybe I will. Then I thought about a series of life reflections...like in Tuesdays with Morrie. And then I just simply didn't have the time to philosophise.

Point being point, what are blogs anyway? The most often answers you get would be somewhat an online diary, which is by far the furthest from truth. Are you seriously telling me that what you write in your blog are your deepest truest feelings? Get real. If they were, you wouldn't post them up in public for family and friends to read. And by ranting on about your insufferable colleague, family member, stranger on the street, with all the "Hate-you's", "hate life" and everything, you are writing them with the intention that someone will read and is reading them. Sympathise with you, or just to let that offensive person know in the first place, without direct confrontation!

And then there's another reason to blog, that is to let your friends know what's been up with you and your life. Ok, granted if you live thousands of miles away. Helpful, cos communication is scant from the other side of the world. But what about friends within reach? Don't we meet often enough. It happened to me before, when having dinner with a friend, and recounting a funny story, they would politely listen, and then let you know "Yah, you've mentioned in your blog." In which case then makes me feel very bimbotic. And then you find yourself scrambling for other stories you have not shared with the rest of the world yet.

And then when it's not writing blogs, it's reading blogs. We've read good ones, we've read poor ones. We've also read ones of the people we are intrigued/attracted/hated/liked/crushed/just-want-to-bang by clicking on links of friends' friends' neighbours' cat's ex-owners' sisters' collegue's blog. Oh come on! You'd only be lying to yourself if you say you didn't. Stalkerish tendencies. Haha But when we...ahem...resource, we expect to find more about that person. The true person. Bonus if it comes with pictures.

But fact is, the blog is never truly truly the person. It's a persona that's being portrayed, most of the time. So who are we fooling really?

What if, a person chanced upon another person's blog. Religiously read his/her blog and felt instant attraction. Or connection. You loved the way he/she writes. No pictures were posted. Just words. Words that enthralled you. A personality that simply snared you from the beginning. And you feel you needed to meet him/her. But you don't know how. There's no tagboard, no contact information. Just that blog. Then what? And as a friend had once pondered on his blog, what if that blogger simply died and disappeared? And the reader just didn't know. How could he/she have known? And he/she just waited...and waited...

I'm definitely not against blogging. I like it, both writing and reading. But now, I'm thinking of the blog I'm having for myself. Maybe a bit of spring cleaning won't be too hard. You know, now that I'm ahem...famous *cough cough* and everything *checks reflection in the mirror...straightening the hair*, it wouldn't hurt to show a bit class. Nor too late as I see it.

And I'm not sure if it was appropriate to quote me even. I'm not a literary genius. I don't have *ahem* professional training. Just a spectator. There are others who will give more constructive advice and criticism. But one day I will like to. One day, I'd like to give some professional insight. If not professional, at least mature.

I want to be a better writer. Teach me, and I'll learn.

PS: The writer would like readers to note how she has painstakingly taken time to cap her words when needed, a feat she has never once cared for. hahaha

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Saturday, March 24, 2007

The Not-So-Random Post

forensic science lecture yesterday, was again, sooo interesting and fun! they actually invited a high court judge to come and speak with us! i was pretty excited! and for the first time, WE get to ask the questions! wow! and i must say, the judge wasn't what i'd expect. instead of some old, stern don't-mess-with-me man, chief justice tay was in fact one DAMN cool dude(no other words to express it! haha) !

he's funny, calm, damn intelligent, compassionate...he deserves his own fan club!

so what i learnt from him? a question asked by the module coordinator...with all seriousness...

prof wong: "will a monkey be charged for murder had the monkey electrocuted the victim?"

the answer is: no.

haha

prof wong is another quirky funny character. and i love my quirky characters!

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building the mailbox has been absolutely draining. but but but, i realised that if i couldn't be an architect, i wanna be a carpenter! (no no...not the singing group you doofus!) but a real carpenter! what fun! cutting, slicing, shaping wood! knocking them together. i found a new toy. it's called a ben-saw. well, the mini ben-saw. and i love it i can control the machine. you know...*ahem* makes me all powerful and all *cough cough*. hehe who says only boys get to play with the big toys eh? ;)

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i believe i am not random! much to most people's disagreement with that statement. but i'm not! and here is where i will defend myself against the label of randomness...

so during one of the many late night conversations we have in studio last night, my friends thought that i was very random in conversation.

there we were, 3 of us, around a table. and i was eating my cup noodles. so the convo started... and let me draw the links...

me eating cup noodles ---> me thought about cup noodles and the maker ---> me told the other two that the inventor of cup noodles, mr. nissin recently passed away ---> friend 1 accuses me of me making random statement, which i denied of course ---> then i thought about death because of mr. nissin ---> then, i thought back about the forensic science earlier, u know, death ---> then thought about the monkey question and dna and stuff ---> so asked friend 1 if animals have dna too (yes yes i know its a stupid question!) ---> and friend 1 explained the whole chromosome thingy... ---> then he explained about how we can't breed with primates or or ancestors (don't ask me how breeding got into the picture.) ---> then i thought about cavemen. u know, ancestors and all ---> then i thought what kind of lives cavemen must have led. ugh. what with no showers and all! ---> then i said that i thought we live in a wonderful time---> here where friend 2 accusses me of random statement "i know what you mean by randomness" she says to friend 1 and they laughed. ne-ver-mind ---> then i argued, well yeah! cavemen time is horrible. how the men would clobber the girl they like and drag them by the hair ---> friend 1 asked how i knew that ---> i said, well duh! it's a well known story ---> then friend 2 says i've been reading too much comics ---> i say no, watching too much cartoons ---> then i suddenly thought of mutant ninja turtles movie is coming out! ---> so i told them --->again another accusation of randomness...which by now you all have realised that it is NOT random at all ---> and friend 1 said how he'd rather watch the simpsons movie ---> i said me too! ---> and i thought about homer simpson. and nat's question on whether homer simpson was depicted after the famous character of The Odyssey ---> and so i repeated that same question.

and then they laughed. saying it was too random and there was no link.

There IS a link!

which you all have seen. and i said i would draw up the chart of links! and so there!
and they said they couldn't see the links prob cos they're all to sleepy and tired.

sigh...never try to have a logical conversation with tired architect students. haha

but it was fun!

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well, was planning to go to studio today but had a random call from somebody (clue: she is small, cute, adorable and loves to eat nuts and climb trees) that pretty much delayed me going out to school. so thought will work at home anyway...WHICH I WILL!! *ok, this shoutout is for myself really...not to anyone else! dont get scared!*

and with that determination intact, i will scoot off now to make my model! ta!

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Poetic Licence to Bitch

back at home and completely shagged. it's been a pretty long day and i'm spent.

having survived on only 2 hrs of sleep last night, i am wondering if i should stay up and continue my work. frankly, i'm not sure if i can trust myself with a penknife at the moment. i happen to like my ten fingers by the way. gwarrght! so much to do, so little time to do it all! and i feel guilty whenever i feel like i wanna sleep. why cant my internal alarm clock be more efficient?? how how how? my brain feels like mush now...

speaking of our little human body parts (like forensic science, like dat arh?), some of my studio mates were much amazed at the "smallness" of my feet. ok. honestly, how is size 5 small? like, isn't that almost the norm? and i'm not exactly tall. so it's NORMAL! or not. what do i know? but not the first time i get such a comment! haha i also happen to have small fingernails. pity. if they were bigger, i might scratch better! hehe well, maybe i found the reason behind my falling all over the place in the past! haha

and due to yoga yesterday and lack of stretching, my right arm is sore-ing. great. lucky the right arm sia. but it wont deter me from trying yoga again. it was actually pretty good!

i actually managed to catch tempestatous beasts at UCC today! like wow! my first ever attendance to one of these nus arts festival thingy they have every year. anyway, tempestatous beasts is a literary poetry reading, featuring 4 local poets. so, caught it because my one and only alfian saat was there as one of the poets. whippee!!

but i must say, i was rather disappointed with the whole thing. it didnt exactly meet up to my expectations i guess! in my mind, tempestatous beasts, judging from the title alone, would be a passionate angsty emotional angry sarcastic literary reading. but instead...haiz. i'm not sure how to describe it. let's just say the feelings wasn't there, lah. it was tame. or as cyril wong has rightfully observed, the evening seemed dedicated to "gay poetry". haha which is true. nothing wrong with that. but seriously, not one who who appreciates "william-blakish"-like poetry with love and all (gawd no!) unless it's edgy. though some imagery used were pretty good.

but dammit! i needed some angst! some sarcasm! some indifference. something negative. oh yeah. now you know my taste of poetry. hehe

and alfian baby, as much as i like you, i didn't feel much today. the prose was wonderful! but sadly i read it before. :( but pooja nansi was good! short succint poems and read with great passion. nice!

and that guy lee-sheng just annoyed me. what's up with the cape?? a little too much. my mood couldnt take it today.

but despite it all, had a great time today! thanks iskandar!! it was great fun hanging out with you and bitching about...well everything! haha... and i'm still laughing from ur classic ugly betty moment of walking into the door! fwahaha... wait must tell nurul! *evil grin* haha

last but not least before i end this post off, a rant on human behaviour. why do people behave the way they behave? and why do people respond to other people's behaviour the way they respond? and why is it bloody difficult to acknowledge someone else's presence even though you have seen, maybe even talked to him/her? why is it hard to say hi to another person? why is it hard to smile to another person? why is it hard to be a little bit friendly? what's with all the feigned amnesia and hostility??

and more importantly, why do i, as i rant this out, do the same too? (duh. i'm not that blind) it's a common problem.

what goes around comes around. *shrugs* i'm too tired to care at the moment. if i'm a bit hissy or hostile towards you all in the next couple of weeks, understand its submission week.

god. it's submission week.

sigh.

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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Pointless

Aaah.

stupid stupid thing to have done, really. a mistake that could have been avoided but didn't. cos usually i'm very careful about these things. very careful. i wonder what telah happened. twilight zone paid me a visit again?

this is how i celebrate the return of my computer...by miscalculating and fixing myself into an embarrassing situation. bagus. oh wells. hopefully it didn't turn out bad! maybe nothing happened! maybe i'm overreacting! :D

anywaaays... its that time again when we're all pretty much swamped with work, work and nothing less than work. like freeaaak. ok, so at least this sem is slightly better, despite the heavier workload (6bloody panels + models!!! 2 perspectives! *die*) i'm getting used to it! what's worse..i'm actually having fun at it! :D but wait till i start drawing those perspectives sia...

you know...talking to su today made me realise how much i miss debates. like a full-college debate. like when did i last did that?? gawd! ages ago man. ok, so don't tell me to watch the arena. cos i havent. it happens that tuition falls exactly at the time arena starts. ah well. i remember watching world debates when they came to singapore. i must have been what? 14? 15? and watching it in my sis's school. so fun! i think debates are fun! let's have a debate! pick an issue and argue! be all witty and sarcastic and entertaining! funness! :D

i miss my cousins! like really! i havent seen them in ages! what with school and all. and one of them is in dubai. like far. and i realsied how much she's grown. sooo..i remember her when she was a kid no more that 6. and now she's a teenager, catching up with me! and i keep forgetting that! so i shouldn't be surprised. see, this is why i'm the youngest and not the oldest! growing young kids scare me! haha

this post has absolutely no point whatsoever. :D

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Sunday, March 04, 2007

News and news!

And the news...brought to you by Rowell.

britney spears got a new haircut. *shrugs* slightly shorter than her usual hairstyle. no biggie.

carol vessey and ed stevens finally got together! like FINALLY!!! woohoo!! so, i'm not too fond of carol, but she's okay. and ed is completely sweet and adorable! favourite thing he did for carol? throwing waffles at her house. haha wacky funny and sweet!

the departed won for best picture! like, really? wow!

and reese witherspoon wore a really nice gown for the oscars i thought!

and i went shopping! bought 3 new nice tops! yayness!

and i bought a new pair of sneakers too!!! wheee! so happy!

aisyah can now sing hindi theme songs from zee tv! so cute!

and i cant go to the furniture fair tomorrow. :(

and the numero uno news of the week.....

computer crashed. and just the day before my forensic essay submission date. bagus. freaking #!@*&% uggghh!! so yes. basically internet-deprived and having to rely on the school computers till my comp is supped up again. thinking of getting a macbook if my laptop is unfixable. i'm damn bloody sick of windows as it is. bill can pack up his pc and shove off, hons.

and then now, when once i had many things to say, have now nothing to say.

oh yes. too too many work and assignments and projects. *gulp* :(

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Tuesday, February 20, 2007

A Fashionable Holiday

man..it's been some time since i blogged. a pretty busy week it had been week, what with submission and crit (phew! glad that's done and done!) and that ended off nicely with the term break!!! woohoo! a whole nice long week to just take time and...

catch up on my other modules. -_-"

yeah. the other 3 mods that has been neglected the past half-sem! hehe..talk about spring break! where's the impromptu road trip? or that party on the yacht? or some whacked out jamming like our pals do up above in the world so high (namely u.s.a of course). gah. wait long long yar before singapore school system allows us that!

and i kinda told myself sometime last year that i'd do more backpacking travelling during my week breaks. hah!

ah wells! but i had a pretty good long weekend so far for cny! that mainly involves just staying at home at chilling...oooh! which reminds me..*breaks off for commercial break* ....

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! GONG XI FA CAI!!! to all our lovely friends who celebrate this joyous occasion!!! =D ...

...and back to me. (well duh. it is a blog abt me! hehe) anywaaay...where was i? oh yes! my ultimate boring life...ah yes...just chilling at home..watching tv. and since my computer has once again been acting all huffy and prissy (by not wanting to switch on again!!! grrr) back to the basics of reading for entertainment! reading the fountainhead by ayn rand (thanks weiq!) and i must say, i've only done like a few pages but i'm already loving it!!! =D ok..so i'm biased. the story is about an architect. and architect i like! hehe and besides that...been sprucing up my room...a room i wont often see once school starts again. seriously, what's the point??

well... got a lot of things to do on my holiday list...catch up on school work mainly, and do a lil reading. start on that forensic science essay (got to head down to the library soon! gah!), a bit of fieldtrips here and there (pretty excited about that!) and do my presentation for studio. and and and and....guess who i'm doing on??? *jumps about excitedly*

TOM FORD!!!! =D

ok, honestly, when i was given him to do my presentation on, i had NO idea who the hell he was. and then when i learn about him, OMG! i'm sooo impressed by this guy! this guy! this one hell of a guy, practically transformed gucci and yves saint laurent, saved it from its wreck back in the early nineties, and made it what it is today!!! he's a genius! a real one at that! and this is what he looks like...

smoking. tom baby, could you turn un-gay and marry me? and did i mention that he was a genius?
and of course, my tutor suggested i get a sample of his latest parfum... the one that is limited edition...the one that is NOT sold in singapore!!! auggghh! and how am i supposed to do that??? when his company's contacts aint even listed!!! doomed i am. anyhow...his parfum is called

THE BLACK ORCHID

and i already want it. even though i've yet to smell that damn thing. why? because of the brand. because it's tom ford's!

gawd! now you know how branding is! me...one who is not a sucker for brands...is actually contemplating over it. mind you, it US$600 for a piece (rolls on the floor laughing)

anyhow, read up on this guy if you can..even if it's a page. he's damn impressive. the biggest star in the world of fashion i must say. and that vanity cover by ana lieboritz with scarlett johannsen and what's her name?- ah! ok, no. forgot it totally. damn. that's hot.

anyway. you kinda get when they say the world of fashion is seductive. i say, it's the world of beauty. period. my studio had a discussion over fashion, style, branding... during dinner one time. and it made me both fascinated and conscious. and makes me wanna create a new look for me this year. what should i be? what style do you think i should adopt? maybe ought to put it on viewer voting. one day perhaps! :)

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