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Thursday, December 29, 2005

The Quick City Dweller Jumped Over The Lazy Country Bumpkin

From Bugis...to Orchard...and finally to Simei. Yup, i've been around singapore! well..okay. not exactly. prob the east side! but hey! it was still tiring! and still burnt a hole in my ezlink card! burh...

i've learnt, that the best way to maximise your time and be able to do the many things you want to do...is to segmantate your day into 3. Morning, afternoon, evening. yes yes...it wasn't a rocket scientist who discovered this. but i realise that i could have a meeting in the morning, have coffee with a secondary school friend...and then have dinner with a jc friend! or or or.... breakfast with an old friend, catch a movie with another friend and spend the evening with my family! i used to think that an entire day is used up on one particular task! hah! how naive i was! i found the power of breaking my days. and its better too! it at least seems more manageable! yup...i'm learning to be a quick city dweller! i just have to remember to put in a slot for smelling the roses though....maybe next tuesday? 10 to 1pm?

but even so, a quick city dweller cant find a decent place to have dinner in town. which is why we went to simei. and had kebabs.

and i also realised how hard it is for a quick city dweller to keep on budget. thus the move to simei. and had kebabs.

and not forgetting how frustrating it is for a quick city dweller to have walked all around bugis, all around town, and then looking forward to the fact that i can happily buy my mango top and have milkshake, was easily thwarted with the store's timely closure for some silly reason (it was still 6pm for goodness' sakes!) as well as the cafe suddenly not having milkshakes at that time! AT ALL!!! thus the move to pasir ris, from simei. and had 50¢ ice cream.

quick city dweller. ritzy. affluent. powerful. that's me alright!

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Be Brave, Young Warrior, and Fight

went to the museum yesterday! met with me old friend whom i havent seen in ages! went to see narnia! yup! great day yesterday! worth the two blisters i got for wearing my barmy heels!

watching movies like this always makes me wanna train up. not for some willy silly reasons like being healthy or looking good. but for reasonable practical situations like being chased by a wicked witch on a sleigh or going into battle against the evil-doers. i may need to run. i may need to fight. therefore i need to be fit! you never know when you'll step into another world. excuse while i practise some martial arts. :)

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Friday, December 23, 2005

Relax....

so i went for my very first massage! all professionally done...with a discount too! it was an interesting experience. i didn't really need it, but hey! you gotta try everything once right? but it certainly wasnt what i was expecting. firstly, i don't think it was like what the 'heroine' of movies actually feel. (a) my mind do not go blank and feel all relaxy. in fact, it was so quiet, my mind was thinking a whole lot of nonsense just to make sure it was noisy! and (b) there is no moaning and sounds of pleasure. what the heck with that??

so there i entered, dressed in a sarong, when i was told to lie on the bed thing with the head rest where there was the hole in the middle? yeah! my first time!

whoa! my face is going to look very funny if someone was to look up!

it was weird just lying there. i was so conscious of my body. i tried to relax. i think my arms was in an awkward position, but i felt relaxed. there was music, the lights were dim. i could feel the corners of my eyes being stretched as i lay there, with the masseuse in front of me.

hey! i can see her feet! this is like in friends! when phoebe feet-flirted with her client! yeah... too bad. i'm a girl. not interested in girls. her feet are rather broad though...

and the masseuse, she started to massage my back with aromatherapy oils. and holy crap! it was so ticklish! every massage brought in a new feeling of tickleness! and i couldn't get used to it! it was a ticklish massage! i wanted to burst out laughing, but i couldnt!

hey! i can write this in my blog! hmm..let me think what i shall include...

and then she did this koochie-like thingy. i seriously felt as if i was being tickled! even when she did this acupuncture thingy. i realised my back is very ticklish! and then she did the weirdest thing...she massaged my ears!

what the --- ?!?!?!

seriously, super ticklish, super weird. cant remember what came next. it could be the legs. and even that i was ticklish! my feet of course got the worst bit. felt like jerking them whenever she runs a knuckle through the sole. but the acupuncture was rather painful. when that was done, i was told to turn around.

hmm...the ceiling is pretty interesting. there are 1..2...7 wooden beams. oh look! and a blotch!

and she massaged the top part of my legs. she said my feet were cold. i have cold feet!!! haha...geddit? geddit?? :D she said i need to get the blood circulating there. "oh really?" i said. well, what else can u say? and then she asked me if i felt like sleeping. cos all of her clients said they felt like sleeping when she massage them AND my eyes are so big.

oh, well, sorry! i didn't know i was to have my eyes closed!

and she told me some other stuff abt her massages, which frankly, i didnt want to hear. my ears cooperated. they kinda zonked out those stuff. and then hastiliy, with a polite laugh, i said "ok ok...i try to sleep now" and i closed my eyes. she went on to my head. which was very painful.

it's ok. breathe. women have higher tresholds for pain...

and next was me arms. which ended the whole thing. she told me that next time, i should get the foot package which actually costs cheaper than the body massage! only $33! she said, especially students who sit all day and walk long distances with heavy school bags tend to have back and leg pain. this package consists of 30min of leg massage + 15min body massage AND a herbal bath for my feet! not bad i say....

but next time, i figured, i need someone with stronger hands. the massage was nice, but i kinda expected to be kneaded and feel light at the end. something like that. only, the lady gave me her number. what a way to trap me! she's nice. now i feel obliged! all because she gave me an extra 5-10min! oh dear! but i did enjoy myself! at least i wasn't alone on this! ;)

i think i splurged a lot this holiday. which is bad. what happen to the plan of being scrooge and save and scrimp for a good holiday away from singapore?? now most of my raya money is gone. sigh.... i think i need a financer. she can help me with my money! now need to budget-budget! so guys, if you wanna go out, let's opt for economy-friendly activities! like picnic! or watching dvds! =D

on a side note, i did pretty ok for my exams! Alhamdullilah! my econs pulled me down though. but at least i've got a chance for sep! alright! plan Y and A are out of the window. and i don't think i should continue with econs. play with strengths rite? but what the heck am i gonna do with me future??? decisions decisions.... i wish my life was an interactive programme where i can see what happens to the character (me) if i click on one option. if i don't like it, restart the game!

well, i better log out now! have many interesting books to read! and i can't wait to start! goodnight loves!

ps: on a side-note..damn! he's not dumb! he's actually witty! auuugh! and i was hoping he would be a bit dull! well, there's still the no-gentlemanly quality! yeah! i'll keep thinking that! =D

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

The Girl With the Guitar

does a rockchick hairdo make a rockchick?

my sister felt that having me have a "younger, spunkier" hairdo will change the way i walk, think and my entire attitude and personality. she told this to the hairdresser. and the result was a rockchickish hairdo. so, according to her theory, will it make me a rockchick?

i decided to try it on the masses. i went out in public! (gasp!) some liked it, some didn't. those who liked it were of my sis's age grp. and those who didn't were people from my own age group! gawd! i think i may have gone back to the nineties!!! horrors aside, i observed myself.

i talked the same. i behaved the same. i laughed the same. and i think of the same crazy things. sure i look at the mirror a lot more now (to check on the new hair) but that's about it. my taste in music, movies or literature didn't change. i havent traded my jamie cullum cd for the white stripes. nope.... her theory surely failed.

but then i looked a tad closer. my hair may have changed, but my clothes didn't. and being rather er...i hate to admit this... a little feminine in my wardrobe, my hair was an obvious mismatch. maybe, if i changed my clothes too, then i would be a different person as well!

i could try. i could get clothes that would match my hair. and that would make me look more rockchickish. sure. why not? 2006...my new look. and maybe the whole rockchick attitude will rub off on me.

but last night, i found out that it takes way more than the way you look to be a rockchick. it takes a whole new attitude, a higher level of daring and a greater sense of determination. right spunkrock? ;) and she doesn't even have a rock hairdo or a leather studded choker!

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

Waiting For Dawn

it didn't make sense for me to sleep now and KNOW that i wont wake up at dawn. instead... i think i shall pen down my flurry thoughts which i didnt think i had till, i had a bad gnawing feeling somewhere...somewhere i cant put a finger on. could be my buzzing head...could be my chest...my flipping tummy ... or my beating heart. i don't really know.

my first encounter of this weird feeling was only a couple of days ago. i looked at my options and realised...that really, i could not have what i wanted. that the one thing that i see myself happy in the future, is simply not going to be within my reach. and i realised i missed the boat. i screwed up. and whatever plans i had to remedy it was not going to work. i wanna say it's fate but i can't. i feel i need to exercise all other options but right now i can't see any. what is it?? what is it i'm just not seeing? or am i being a freakin dreamer and should give up. when do you know that you've been beat? when do you know that you should throw in the towel? and will i regret it if i do? and if i dont give up, will i lose more on a dream that is so hard to achieve?

second encounter of weird feeling was well...earlier today really. all was going okay till a little chat made me realise what a muddled head i had. i had so many opinions, so many feelings, so many things running through my head. so many things that i needed to sort out on the matter...and then, suddenly, i just told myself to stop. and i ceased to care.

have i reached that point? have i been so jaded that really...whatever happens...it doesn't matter to me anymore. and while its simpler, is it any better? what has caused me to feel this jaded? what? what?? i'm interested to know. it's simplier... but....sigh. i'm calmer, my words come out more naturally. is it that nothing shocks me now? or have i been too comfortable and complacent? does this call for soul searching? and if i do, will it leave me in more of a mess than ever?

i swore today. many times. in a row actually. and i didn't even realise it! it came out! there, then, when i panicked. i only realised when two of my friends were shocked to hear me say it. it has never happened before. so yes it was weird. but it came out so naturally. another friend said that there should be no excuse for anyone to swear. but what are swear words anyway? words are arbitrary, rite? what's taboo now may not be taboo in the future. but then, we're not living in the future. we're living in the present. and in the present, it's taboo, it hurts people feelings (not that i swore at anyone..) . and i'm sorry i said it. i am. huh. i never thought i had to curb swearing. again, when did this happen?

i feel as if i slept through a portion of 2005 where sudden changes took place in me. believe me, i realise it.

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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

We're all Katies

I can't believe that the days just whizzed by! before i know it, two weeks have gone by. and i can't remember half the things i did. i know i went out...a lot...nearly everyday. which i'm not complaining. but it leaves me little to breathe, have some "me" time (which to every girl, is utmost important!) and do "me" stuff! so by hook or by crook, today, i'm not gonna step out of the house, gonna do a bit of writing and finally try finish reading that bloody goddamn book i've been trying to finish since sec school!!! auggh! i love the story... i know. but reading the unabridged version of great expectations is so... wordy! also, intend to have some laughs in front of the tv!

which i did yesterday night! stayed up whole night watching sex and the city! that show is so refreshing, so scandalous! but oh so hilarious! in my jammies, in front of the tube, with ben and jerry for company (sorry nads! haha)

and unexpectedly,there, i found the mystery of men and women! now, girlfriends, why we are oh so single is because, like carrie bradshaw, we are Katie! i mean, come on! we have wildish hair! we are exuberant and intelligent! we have personalities and opinions! and so we are so complicated! and men...they are just lazy! yes! they are all robert redfords who are to lazy to make the effort to chase these women! they take the easy way out! they go for poker-straight hair lasses (isn't it oh so true here? *wink*) who are well...sorry... just easier? easy-going, agreeable, practically soulless. sad but true. so when we see stage beauty, down with love and the notebook, we go head over heels for kynaston (billy crudup), noah (ryan gosling) and catcher block (ewan mcgregor) because they made the effort to find their match! aha! so u see, if not for all this lazyness, we would not be expecting people to hang from the ferris wheel with one hand!

yessiree. i'm gonna have to watch that 'the way we were' and going to learn more. and don't judge me that i get my education from the movies. :p

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Monday, December 12, 2005

You're IT!

i got tagged! *gasp!* why why why didn't i see it coming?? oh the agony! for those unfamiliar with the game of tag..proceed to enlighten urself...

Rules of the game:
1. post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself.
2. at the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to do this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!

sigh...i suppose i must....

1. i read very slowly.
2. i'm the only one in my family who eats fried rice in a bowl with chopsticks when my mom makes em
3. i bought a biker-black "leather" jacket i never used...since i was 15?
4. i had a bright banana-yellow overalls when i was 11...and i wore them! in public!
5. i never had chicken pox....yet.

that's me all right! haha...now its YOUR turn! grins..

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

I Am

Have you ever thought you wanted something before...something real bad and you become miserable because you couldn't have it? And then you realised, that it didn't matter anymore. you didn't need it. you are happy as you are.

this week had forced me to look into my own life. it made me questioned who i am, my roots, what i wanted, and most importantly, what kind of woman i wanted to be. i've always questioned my identity, never really feeling that i belonged. i've always thought that the things i wanted were for the right reasons, but really, it wasn't. i've always thought i was mature (haha) but really, i've yet to learn life's greatest lessons.

it was a push-pull "module" i learnt this week. push, from what i observe of people surrounding me. pull, because of the words and experiences from a friend whose respectability, kindness and wisdom is beyond any woman i know..whom i wished i had gotten to know better. the reason i bothered with all the other junk was her. was it worth it? yep, i think it certainly was. i've learnt a lot.

rethinking your life isn't easy. but necessary. never to be dwelt upon, but always to be reviewed time and time again. make most of the time God gives you. be grateful for what you have because, really, it is what suits you the best. you won't be any more happier in another's shoe.

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Sunday, December 04, 2005

Kal Ho Na Ho?

"In this lifetime, you get Naina. But in the next life, the next birth and every one after that, Naina belongs to me. "

Sigh..nehi. nehi nehi nehi!

when i've just begun to get all critical and dissy again on the subject of "love", i had to go watch a movie that brings me to tears! and wonder. wonder if that is how love really feels... real love that is. so strong and powerful and well, beautiful. and sad. yes sad. is that how love really is like? or am i just disillusioned by the creative minds of writers? have i been sucked in? but even so... i cant help wanting to fall in love. to really really fall in love. to give my heart to someone who would give his heart to me. i keep waiting for a fairy tale romance..well, not really fairy tale per se! i mean you know... something more than sms, msn and emails. ever wondered why movies dont spawn from romancing technology? helllloooo? ...ok You've Got Mail does not count! it wasnt email. it was books, so there!

damn it. i've got to stop watching bollywood movies. i've been crying and now i'm in too much of a daze to do anything. damn shah rukh khan!

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Soak Up the Sun

Now i'm able to put up my legs and smell the roses! yesiree...just polished off 5 nasty exams and now having the greatest pleasure of emptying my mind and being dumb again! *yay!* there's of course so many things that i (1) gotta do and (2) wanna do. and what better time to start the festivities than the night of the finished exam?? yep, 7.30pm wednesday we cheered our way out of the hall and into a cab to have dinner at the famous manhattans. of course, that treat wasnt easy to come by. nope. spent a looong time trying to catch a cab. and of course the usual near-death situation while jay-walking. it was too funny! imagine a screaming (blind) lass, and her friend stuck in the middle of the road, waiting for the bloody car to move faster and two others laughing their heads off. but dinner was great! company was great! conversation was great! and post-dinner was great too! got to see all the christmas lights and they were lovely! i almost shivered when i entered the mall. it's been that long! that was fun! and when i got home, all shagged, my family wanted to go jb. didnt want to be left out, so off i went as well! my family are owls...seriously. we love our midnight haunts! came back at 3 am... we were tired...but we had fun.

and today! yeses! what fun! i finally caught the goblet of fire! *hurrah!* and i must say it was fab! i think the best out of the four! effects was as usual pretty grand, but more importantly, the characters got their due reel-time! finally they show how funny fred and george are! and dumbledore not having that wheezing voice like in movie two was a relief! definitely lively, but a tad more violent than what i remembered him to be in the book! haha yes yes.... i liked it! and maybe it helped that i didnt read the book just before watching the show! haha and then, again, jalan jalan around amongst the brilliant lights! i had these two camera-wielding nuts with me *ahems* who snapped everything from lido down to dhoby gaut where we settled for our coffees and mindless banter! such fun!

i think i'm gonna like my holidays now! haha and i've got a rough idea of what i want to do..
1. catch up with friends! very very important!
2. paint my room! i realised it is far too pink! i'm no pink girl! and i've got an idea! shall do a lovely silhoutte on one side! shall i have the manhattan skyline? or the london bridge?
3. bowling! yes yes..each episode of Ed brings each desiree to bowl
4. shopping!!!
5. hit the gym. i really must! the effects of hari raya is...gulp...gaining on me!!!
6. ice-skating! wow! the last time i did that was....wow! the last time i did that was....wow!
7. DVD renting and watching! a whole buncha movies i've bloody missed!!!
8. finally finally start my album! augh! (no no not music. think picture book)
9. Read!
10. go to a carnival, eat candy floss and ride topsy-turvy rides!
11. a picnic! in botanical gardens! with a basket!
12. be in another country! and seriously too! now the opportunity of aceh now denied of me, i wonder where shall i go? i'd like to go a place that offers para-sailing or jet-skiing or scuba-diving or snorkeling! that will be fun!

so if anyone who also has the same interest to do any of these, let's meet up! i'm determined to make well of my hols. yesiree i will!

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