Monday, March 27, 2006
Knock KnockDoctor Hitch is in the house!!!
oooh my deliciously devious mind is at work! so i've found a perfect guy for this perfect girl! and i'm itching to match them up! but really! u see them, and u would go whoa! what a pair! what each has been looking for in the other! what wit! what energy! perfect! *rubs hands*
but of course this needs careful careful planning and a dash of manipulation. gotta play the cards right right? and there are a bit of technicalities here and there. nothing i cant do. well, this is certainly a second speech i have to make at a wedding! wonderful! Hartfield here we come!
but sigh. where's my Mr. Knightly?
anyhows, hobbies aside, i have problems of my own. just when i thought i will major in sociology, which i do adore, i realise that it is not exactly what i expected. i'm interested in anthropology, but its very different from sociology in its approach. but nus just don't offer anthropology. and then, the door of southeast asia is open. which is practical, holds more prospects, more opportunities and deals with more anthropology than soci does in nus. so what now?? how can an hr session with my tutor make it all so difficult again! damn! but what he said is all right. heck, i can tell propaganda, but i can also tell facts and figures. and i wanted to discuss abt it just now, but of course chris wld only scoff. what i need is more info. i don't need to rush now. but at least i'm aware. see, these kinda teachers i like! at least they help! and heaven knows how much help i need!
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
Start You Engines...If You Can...it was back in the library for me yesterday...again...to do research. i must say, i've found another favourite place to be! but research research, read, write, read... it was coming to evening, and as i gazed out of the window, the sight of the esplanade was like wow! by the water, it was sparkling, so tempting! augh! it was hard to ignore! i mean, on a saturday evening, it must be nice to like be there! there might even be some performance outdoors! and i was in the mood to chill!
so like half-an-hr before the library sends us packing, i gathered my stuff, and wondered if i should take a walk there. what if it was far? and it was getting late to boot. but hey, a lil detour wouldn't hurt. it was actually near, and along the way at raffles city, i got myself a nice tall hot mocha to take me on my walk. it was lovely! especially when i have been freezing in the library! and when i got there, i was right! there was a performance! an indie group, and my they were good! who said we don't have local talent?? it's staring there right in our faces! and it was all nice and soothing. too bad i only caught its last two songs. but it was a nice break after all. they're called lilac something or other, hadn't played for like 8yrs so they claim(tho i found the lead extremely familiar!) and in fact they were playing tonight! but i cldn't go. damn.
anyhow, i lingered a while longer listening to some nice music, albeit recorded, before i caught the bus home. i had a straight bus home! and i didn't know it till yesterday! it was nice...just chilling by myself. school has been really stressful. and i know i have a million and one things to do! but i feel like i'm slipping away! my mind isn't churning like its supposed to! i'm feeling stupider by the minute and i was stupid to begin with! i want to things i shouldn't be doing now! like going for concerts, reading (haha) watching movies, discovering bands and what-not, create a whole new personality for me bla bla bla.... which is all fine. but not now. i'm so slacking and its scaring me. cos it kinda happens where the second half of my pit-stop in education is all messed up and that's like the important part of the time! like psle, like the o's like the a's. damn it man. i was on a roll! now...i might as well be on a conveyor belt to sushi-dom!
i think home and the outside world is very dangerous for me now. school shall be my lock-up haven now! and work shall be my priority! if i wanna get what i want, that's the only way man. i just wished my engine would just start soon.
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Friday, March 24, 2006
Miracle Workeri have just handed in, the most EXPENSIVE essay i have ever done! allow me to break down the price tag of this wonderful essay of mine....
*think mastercard advert song...you know which one*
Cab fare : $13.00
Colour Printing : $ 9.00
Puncher: $6.00
File: $0.90
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Total: $28.90
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Oooh but it doesn't end there......
Lectures: 2 (missed)
Sleep: 1 sleepless night
Heartache: 1
Headache: 1
Coffee: half the world's supply?
Aya caramba! now you know why i'm going broke, financially and energily! hope the result is priceless! priceless and GOOD! haha at least that's two battles down, two more to go! woohoo! now i can concentrate fully on my sea essay! which should be fun! gender relations! and i can finally prove to chris that women are the better sex! hah!
does it mean my week is going to get any easier? hell no! need to drag myself back to the library! but first......
*crawls to bed. and just sleeeeeeeppppzzzz zzzzzzzz*
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Collideyou have two particles. or atoms. or electrons. anything. they're free radicals, and they're moving around a certain space freely. floating about, visiting other particles and such, but separately. one would visit a nucleus at one point, while the other floats. and when the first radical ends its visit, the other would have just started its visit with another nucleus. or maybe both will be visiting nuclei at the same time. but in their visiting moving orbits, they never actually do collide. they never got the chance to! but it appears...well, guessingly, that each wants to collide with the other because each feels that they might be able to contribute something in the cosmic metaphysical world of science! aha! well, of course, all this is just wooly guesswork. i'm no rocket scientist! i sooo need to brush up on my chem and physics anyway!
anyhow, point is...why do they not collide? an absence of a collision would well, mean an absence of one more possible amazing scientific discovery! sometimes the collaboration between 2 great ideas would make a great one idea leading to a great dicussion! and a good friendship.
but they never collided. and a friendship was not realised. because they didn't damn collide.
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Friday, March 17, 2006
My Pending Last Will and TestamentSo I was in the bus, right? on my way home. And the next stop was my stop, right? I slung on my bag, and prepared to get off my seat when all of a sudden…
WHAM!
The bus jerked and I had lurched forward. my right shoulder rammed into the seat in front. Like
Ouch! What the hell was that about! nursing my hurting shoulder, I turned and saw this idiot of a person trying to make an illegal turn that could have collided with the bus! Dude! How can you miss a foot-long bus?!?! What sense does it make? Idiots running the roads! Brilliant. *rolls eyes*
But what freaked me out more was that if the car had collided with the bus, it would have hit directly the side of the bus where I was sitting!
Pfft! I could have been gone! Dead! in a second I should think!
Well, not that I'll be surprised. I've always thought that I would die of unnatural causes. as in, I probably won't be facing death warm and cuddly on a bed. Nosiree… I predict that my death would be quite horrid! maybe in an accident…or in a flood/hurricane/fire/earthquake or perhaps strangled, shot, stabbed, hacked by a psycho! I'm also suspecting that I have some weird disease probably eating through my system right now! and speaking of eating…I was almost devoured by ants in school a moment ago! Yes, ladies and gentlemen. this is one person who will die eaten by ants. I think there is this known phobia or paranoia where a person is constantly thinking that there are people out there to kill him/her. Hey! Maybe I have that phobia!
Death is scary. really scary. but when it happens, it happens right? I'm not so naive to think that I will definitely live a long live…that I still have so many years to go! Nonsense I say! my term on earth may end in so many years, so many months, so many weeks, so many days, or so many minutes! you'll never know. Well, at least I know I'll never know! It keeps u on the edge at least. and makes sure you live your day purposely and honourably.
well, in that case then, I guess I should make some sort of will, shouldn't I? Not a will will cos I have no idea how to do that! but I guess I have some stuff I'd like to give away to family and friends! so like beth and amy in little women eh? well, except I don't have much stuff! I have no treasures! Damn! I knew I should have collected something or other! I have few treasured stuff that will prob represent me of some sort. I’d like to bequest all my journals and my stupid stories to baby aisyah adnan! Who knows she may learn something from them! Inspire to be a writer! I don't know if she'll want to be a writer! if not, it can be passed down! Maybe publish them like a good descendent should! Haha…my silly sketches/doodles/designs I'd give to najwa! Cos she loves to draw and design too! she's the only person I know who professed to love art! my books, my favourite pen (the fountain pen), my box of classroom notes, my CDs, my archie book collection…. hey I have an idea! If any of u guys see something that you like or want after I'm dead, do tell me! Maybe a book you liked, or a necklace or a top or something! Anything! It’s yours! I'll just put it in my will. my will looks a tad messy now. I think I shall tidy things up first.
but thennn…i realised I can't die yet! Haven't had sex, cannot die first! No no no no! I believe me friend said this too! sex and the last installment of harry potter! Hmmm..i paralleled sex with HP. What is the world coming to?? guess i have to defer death till i get these 2! Well, it still doesn't mean I still don’t have that paranoia.
*switches of the lights, crawls into bed. Pulls up comforter up to eyes. And waits……*
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Friday, March 10, 2006
High Lofty Dreamsi think i'm ambitious.
is that good?
many times i think it is. cos it motivates change. challenges. you're not static, and you know you're achieving something, whatever that thing is. it's a goal. but i think i have high ambitions too. and they are hard to achieve, believe me. and sometimes, i'm not sure if that's good.
heck. i'm no bright spark. i'm just an ordinary gal who sleeps in her ordinary room in an ordinary flat who eats ordinary food and dresses ordinarily. i look ordinary, i speak ordinarily and i have ordinary tastes. i need to work for what i want. things don't come easy to me. i'm pretty much an ordinary middle-class gal in the crowd.
but sometimes i wonder if i'm reaching too high. reaching at something that's way above my head, beyond my capabilities. cos the fall isn't pretty. and while trying is good, when do u just stop trying and say "hey, this is it! i can't get it!" i have no idea what i expect from myself.
multi-billionaire! world leading entrepreneur! famous artist! nobel-prize winner! economic genius! active humanitarian! stopper of poverty! revolutionist! justice!
sometimes i wish i could stop kidding myself.
3 hopes. 3 possible disappointments.
*crosses fingers*
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
I'm too Sexy For my Body, Too Sexy....i have once written about what makes a woman a woman. and what makes a man a man. but i don't think i've written about what makes a SEXY man a SEXY man. chalk it up to cleo's 50 bachelors list! which, if u've read it, wasn't thaaat good this year! maybe my criterion list will help them next year! oooh yeah!
alright alright. back to the lesson students. now remember, this all constitutes to a sexy man. not a good, nice man.
What Make a SEXY man...a SEXYman1. a nice even tan. seriously, who wants a dude who's all pale and pasty? you need to look reeaall healthy.
2. dark hair. range: from black to at most...dirty blond. nothing lighter! i mean, anything lighter would seem too boyish! too goody-goody! just not too sexy, you know? ooh, and tousled hair is a must of course. short, NOT floppy (ugh!), and slightly messy. but dont go looking like a shag-dog.
3. arrow-shaped eyebrows. think joshua jackson. or jude law. they're not terribly good looking but with these eyebrows, seems bad-boy is all the rage! with that devillish look? sexy, yes!
4. a cheeky smile. not the leering kind, but a nice, preferably dimpled, smile. but dimpled smile can only come if it has number 3. or else u fall back to mr. goody-goody. again to smile: must have personality. warm-come-hither-but-not-chikopek-kinda-smile. a lopsided smile according to nads! and i concur!
5. wrists. a pair of nice strong wrists. blame ms. lam for putting the idea in ma head. but yes, wrists are preeetty sexy if u think about it.
6. lips: nice kissable lips. not sure of the description, but you know wat it can do. *wink wink nudge nudge*
7. nice long neck. despite wat our panel says aka nadia again, longer necks are more fun!
8. big strong hands. long fingers. cant be stick-thin though. even. but long. like a pianist! with short trimmed nails
9. torso. lean and tall, washboard. arms good and strong. a surfer's bod! not too skinny. nice and average. its abt the shape!
10. a slight slight aftershave, if its manageable. nothing heavy. but it does emit the oh-i-just-woke-up-but-i-still-look-this-sexy look. but only if u have a strong jaw. which should also be on the list!
11. Aaah. the eyes. smouldering, intense, piercing sexy eyes a must. any colour is fine. it'll melt any ice-queen
12. MOST importantly, but never-ever taken seriously by guys, is the CLOTHES on your back! dress well, u are already 3/4 of the way sexy even if u dont have numbers 1-11. the panel has thought so. and so has the entire girlhood population! and jeans...yep, they make all the difference! a good, low-slung, dark jeans is a good investment! coupled with a crisp white shirt, even better, though optional. wink wink. and they say, u can tell a man by his shoes!
alrighty, i think i've blabbered enough for this class. do take note that this is SEXY in its purest PHYSICAL sense. heck, the character/personality/spiritual/mannerism list is twice, even thrice as long! but we shan't get into that.
but remember, boys and girls, that you can never be sexy, unless you are smart, witty and oh-so-well-behaved. superficiality has its limits. personally, i find that a man who reads, and reads good novels, and can talk abt them intelligently, is just oh-so-sexy. a literary man is much more sexier that a scientific man. unless ur a doctor, that is. but still. oh. and no poets. i just find that corny.
well, i think we had a good lesson today. homework: An essay (500words) on what makes a sexy man/woman for you!
Rrrrriiiinnnnnnnnngggggg!
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