Sunday, April 30, 2006
The Owl Bytesdo i have the passion? yes i do i do! believe me, i do!more than ever! Do i have the guts?You bet. it was over quick as a wink.anyhows, my computer is driving me NUTS! i think, with all honesty, that my computer is this amazing wiseguy! see, it happily reboots itself, hangs, also goes to power saving mode that leaves the monitor switched off, has its colours gone askew and what else? oh yeah, i also honestly believe that it laughs at me. why else is it making that wheezing noise?? my brother is in denial. he does not believe that it is spoiled. i've never sweared so much as i do at my computer. can somebody please pleeeaassee tell me what is wrong with my computer?? or better yet, (i'm pulling a useless girly blonde moment here. hair twirl and everything. i'll so have to kick myself for this.) help me fix it? =D i cant pay much, but i'll guarantee there'll be yummy food! and airconditioning! and nice cold drinks! i'm crying for help!!! it might secretly want to kill me!
on a different note: a few days ago....
I SAW AN OWL!!!
Like a real owl! i was walking towards the central library at night when i heard some strange sound. I turned towards the source of the sound, and saw an OWL perched on a tree, hooting very loudly! i stared at it. it stared back at me. and then it flew off! i was so so so amazed! i've never seen an owl live like live among us! it was brown. and was very pretty! i was sooo amazed!
first the collapsed washroom, then an owl. and today the flooded girls bathroom. notice the pattern here? i've always suspected, never could confirm it. if i see a dark-haired boy with a lightning bolt scar on his forehead, i'm tapping every brick on campus to find diagon alley.
sigh. two more papers to go. i'm feeling drained. but no! must push forward! jia yo!
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
FleshyWhat happens when you are in a roomful of muggers, trying to mug yourself, and the stuff you're reading is oh-so-dry? Why, you digress of course!
And what was the topic of discussion? Simply, "
How do you develop thick skin?"
Now, you all may be thinking...WHA-? I mean, isn't thick skin like natural? Like didn't it just sprout out since birth, and then just stays there till the baby just grows up and turns into that nauseating kid and later, an even more nauseating adult? Seriously, how can you develop thick skin?
Simple...if you follow these steps.
1. Fall a lot. Be it on the bus, the train, down the stairs, slipping on a banana...anything man! Just fall. Cos when you do that regularly (and oh-boy you do, trust me) you get used to it. Doesn't matter if you made a fool of yourself, cos you realise it doesn't really matter! Nobody will remember in the end! It's just a day passing by! Unless of course you have a group of friends who *ahem* sit in a circle and HAVE to remind them for you.
2. Bring the egomaniac out of you. Seriously. If you think you're great, everything is just beneath you. No matter what you say or do, heck, you're always right, eh stud muffin? *wink wink* And if you have to, go do the whole Travolta sha-ding in front of the mirror! Or simpler still, repeat this to yourself "I'm Hot! I'm Hot!..."
3. Throw yourself in the deep end of the pool. Figuratively of course. As in, you know that thing you never ever did or thought you'll do cos you were afraid to do it, or cos you were afraid you won't succeed? Yeah, you know which one. Just do it! You'll never know if you don't try!
4. Key ingredient? Laugh it all off. Whatever silly thing you do, or you get knotted in some absurd awkward situation, just laugh it off. It helps develop your sense of humour too! And remember, if you think you had done some really embarrassing stuff, joey/chandler/seinfeld/Frasier/doug has done it ten times worse! Which is why watching comedies is good!
Developing thick skin isn't an easy task. But it ain't that hard either. It's certainly necessary though. Cos when you've developed it, and have learnt to be carefree and happy with yourself, life IS much more fun. But you won't have it all the time either! You'll have your moments of doubts, and you're back to 'oh-no-I'm-so-embarrased!-Kill-me-now!' modes, but that's natural. Heck, I have them too. But considering what I was like when I was little, all shy and quiet, I think I've come a long way. I'm entitled to my moments of doubts. That is why I have Alaska! =D
You see, people tend to have negative perceptions of thick-skinness. But really, it's pretty positive. You will certainly know that with thick skin, the world is open to you, and there's nothing as silly as insecurity to hold you back. That my friends, is confidence!
So look what a session of mugging in a roomful of muggers, with a load of rubbish to read, can do to you. An interesting discussion though. But heavens! Do I need to study! Exams are on the way! Augh!!!! And right now, I don't feel all that confident! (hahaha) on a brighter note, i got a new pair of trainers! *yay!* now i can finally get to exercise! cos...you know...the reason why i havent, er exercised.. was cos i didn't have *cough cough* shoes. er, yeah! ahem....anyhow, with brilliant thanks to my bro fahmy! thankyouthankyouthankyou! =D
Anyhows, I have been FREEZING myself in the library. and then with the rain and all, and later in the cold cold cold bus. I need to warm myself up...
And you know what? I know just the thing that can keep me warm all night! So soothing and comforting...wrapping my hands around it...lips grazing...tongue plunging. Sweet very very sweet. Melting...The warmth of the first intake will rush through the body swiftly...further intakes will only make you perspire. Glowing. Of course, doing it with another is even better. Sharing the moment together..... Three, four…more the merrier.... Care to join me? You know what I'm talking about. Cos I know you want it too. So tempting so tantalizing....Oooohhh....
Yes.... A nice cup of hot sweet cocoa.
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
There's the Sun Again!it was a bad week. a real bad week. "had a bad day?" sang that dude? hah! more like 7 bad days!
but you know what? i had fun today! among friends, fun, laughter and food! joy of ice-skating... worth the aching legs, tub of yummy b&j's chubby hubby...worth the calories (thanks weiq!), chilling with the peeps ...worth the journey, and the look of nurul with neon orange hair? priceless man! *wink*
hope u had fun nurul! we love you! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! *hugs*
on a side note, i now know that my future unborn son will learn to play ice hockey!
Quack!
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Monday, April 03, 2006
Christopher Columbus Made a Discovery...i've made two very important discoveries.
the first one: i cannot, under any circumstance, handle more than 3 young kids at a time. nosiree! one kid, no problem. two, no biggie. three, can manage. but more than that....ohmigosh! i am completely lost! imagine about 10 kids, in one flat, at a birthday party.... recipe for a headache, straight-up? you got that right! they are cute and all, but whoa! together they are noisy and wldn't listen to you! and boy are they vicious! little vicious kids! can you believe one kid calling the other kid a 'loser' straight to her face cos she was too shy to dance as a forfeit of passing the parcel?? catty! and then there's the whole "don't friend him/her" blah blah blah. seriously, if you want to see some real life politics, dont head down to ur MPs. heck, crash a kids party and viola! instant drama! and some of them are really spoiled! even when mun,hanis and me were reminiscing of our lost childhood, we didnt quite remember being complete brats. hmmm... remind never EVER to work in a kindergarten or primary school. i will be a damn bad politician.
second discovery: i have....unfortunately...been rendered immune to coffee! *WAILS* i suspect that i have been drinking so much that the caffeine effect doesn't work on me anymore! damn it! and this week is my busiest busiest week! it never fails, when u need ur support system the most, they run out the back door for greener pastures leaving you stranded on a deserted isle!
sleep is a waste of time. i truly believe it now. too many things to do, to little time. but strangely, i feel very sleepy today. very very. and i have no idea what i'm feeling now. its between anxiety and happiness and wackiness and fear and stress and so much more. i'm practically jumping about. i cant sit still! i need comfort. sleep is supposed to be it. but i think what i really need now is a good hug and someone to tell me everything is gonna be okay....
the end. columbus is going to sail of to bed now.
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